I’m having an affair. A few affairs actually.

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I’ve been a loyal wife for the last nine years, dedicated to my husband, children, family and home. I’ve put my career on hold, lost contact with many friends, doing all of this for the sake of the family. He wanted a stay at home wife and I gave him that. Now this is slowly coming to an end.

I am tired of being ignored at home. Intimacy is non-existent. I get more affection from our daughter’s hamster than I do from my oh-so-loving husband.

No affection either. No passion, no caressing, no brushing past me in the kitchen, no touching my face lovingly. Yet, is an amazing father and other than the total lack of physical affection/attention towards me, a pretty good husband.

The last time we made love was the first weekend in April. We had attended a wedding of one of his best friends who was marring my one of my husband’s old girlfriends. You can’t understand the amount of jealousy I was feeling. My husband became quite drunk and after we returned home later that day, we made love. I am certain he was inspired by the booze and attractive women at the wedding. Whatever the reason he felt so inspired to even begin trying to love me, his efforts were rather un-inspiring. It was the usual pattern as of late. A nipple tweak and rub, a couple of licks on the neck (which I LOATHE) and a beer-smelling and cigar tasting kiss or two. Then it’s a furious separation of my petals with his stubby smelly fingers, a quite insertion with nails that are way too long and BAM! He’s in, he pumps and he’s done. I could go in to much more detail but I will save you from having those visuals in your mind.

So now, I’ve found myself turning to the internet more and more over the last month or so. At first it was foray into craigslist’s personal ads. I had often surfed them for amusement, between looking for exciting finds in the “for sale” section. I checked out all the ads from young men with allegedly supremely magical tongues and penis’ that would “rock my world”. I went on a couple of dates and quickly realized that I however, do not need my world rocking nor licked so fast and hard that I needed kisses. I needed hands on my body, kneading and needing me. After find too many horned up 20-somethings there, I turned to almighty Google to assist me. Google led me to the Ashley Madison Agency. Talk about a godsend. I didn’t have to put myself out there in a bar or something where I’d surely get caught by someone that knows me or my family.

So now I am enjoying the attention of select men who are giving me what I need, when I need it and on my terms. My husband knows nothing. I’ve gone and researched dips for having an affair and found that the information is out there and readily accessible for anything thinking about having an affair. I’ve taken every precaution to ensure I do not get caught and so far, after quite a few dates, all is fine.

I am not even going to try to attempt to justify my actions, except to say that nothing has changed on my home front, other that instead of faking to be happy, I am happy now. My live wasn’t that horrible and now that I am getting what I need on the side, I think that if anything I have made my marriage better. At least better for me. It was already fine and wonderful for everyone else, why couldn’t I be happy too?

I love my husband, love my kids and love my secret affair. If you are having an affair, you understand already. If you are thinking about having an affair, do it. After you catch your breath, you’ll be thanking me for writing this.